OLD AGE

The other day a young person asked me how I felt about being old.

I was taken aback, for I do not think of myself as old. Upon seeing

my reaction, she was immediately embarrassed, but I explained that

it was an interesting question, and I would ponder it, and let her know.

Old age, I decided, is a gift.

I am now, probably for the first time in my life, the person I have

always wanted to be.  Oh, not my body! I sometime despair over

my body ... the wrinkles, the baggy eyes, and the sagging butt.

And often I am taken aback by that old person that lives in my

mirror, but I don't agonize over those things for long.

 

I would never trade my amazing friends, my wonderful life, my loving

family for less gray hair or a flatter belly. As I've aged, I've become

more kind to myself, and less critical of myself. I've become my own

friend. I don't chide myself for eating that extra cookie, or for not

making my bed, or for buying that silly cement gecko that I didn't

need, but looks so avante garde on my patio. I am entitled to overeat,

to be messy, to be extravagant. I have seen too many dear friends leave

this world too soon; before they understood the great freedom that comes

with aging.

Whose business is it if I choose to read or play on the computer until 4 a.m, and sleep until noon?

 

 

I will dance with myself to those wonderful tunes of the 60's,

and if I, at the same time, wish to weep over a lost love... I will.

I will walk the beach in a swim suit that is stretched over a bulging body,

and will dive into the waves with abandon if I choose to, despite the pitying

glances from the bikini set.

They, too, will get old.

I know I am sometimes forgetful.

But there again, some of life is just as well forgotten ...

and I eventually remember the important things.

Sure, over the years my heart has been

How can your heart not break when you lose a loved one, or when a

child suffers, or even when a beloved pet gets hit by a car? But broken

hearts are what give us strength and understanding and compassion. A

heart never broken is pristine and sterile and will never know the joy of

being imperfect.

I am so blessed to have lived long enough to have my hair turn gray,

and to have my youthful laughs be forever etched into deep grooves on my face.

So many have never laughed, and so many have died before their hair could

turn silver. I can say "no", and mean it. I can say "yes", and mean it.

As you get older, it is easier to be positive.

You care less about what other people think.

I don't question myself anymore.

I've even earned the right to be wrong.

 

So, to answer your question, I like being old.

It has set me free.

I like the person I have become. 

I am not going to live forever, but while I am still here,

I will not waste time lamenting what could have been, or worrying

about what will be. And I shall eat dessert every single day.

Author unknown!

Today, I wish you a day of ordinary miracles.